Hi  Heather

I cannot speak from personal experience as far as the bereavement counselling is concerned as did not choose this particular way forward.  However I do relate to the okay one day, not the next feeling and  very much during the early months of grieving I felt this way and often did not see the dips coming or even know/understand why..  I did learn not to expect too much of myself as recognised time was needed to adjust to such a different life and quickly saw it was different fr everyone too.  Some like to keep talking through thoughts and processes, others clam up and find it hard to talk about their lost loved one as it is all just too painful.  As you felt the session at the bereavement cafe had gone okay then it may be worth going again to talk about how you felt after you had left.   In time you will find a way forward that works best for you but grieving cannot be rushed I fear and it reflects just how much we feel the loss.  Virtual hugs. Jules 

That's a hard one to deal with I lost my dad with lung cancer but be sure that she up in the sky looking down on you year upon year