I can feel your pain. I lost my mother in 2015 in a car accident. She was the love of my life and life without her is painful and hard. Even after 4 years since she passed away, I miss her every single moment. I am from Hindu culture and I  don't believe in death, the soul never dies, it is just the physical body is gone back to its roots but the soul is around us in a different form. You just need to feel the energy of your mother's soul. Just pray for her soul and cherish the memory you have with her. She might be gone physically but her memory is still alive with you so live with her memory. you don't need to feel she is gone,  you are part of her and she is alive in you. 

I can feel your pain. I lost my mother in 2015 in a car accident. She was the love of my life and life without her is painful and hard. Even after 4 years since she passed away, I miss her every single moment. I am from Hindu culture and I  don't believe in death, the soul never dies, it is just the physical body is gone back to its roots but the soul is around us in a different form. You just need to feel the energy of your mother's soul. Just pray for her soul and cherish the memory you have with her. She might be gone physically but her memory is still alive with you so live with her memory. you don't need to feel she is gone,  you are part of her and she is alive in you.