Lost my dad 12 weeks ago, he had a rare aggresive partoid cancer. He was in recovery then we were told it had gone to his brain, we lost him 3 weeks later. The cancer battle was a little over 2 years in total, numerous surgeries and hospital stays very difficult for mum and dad. My dads brain tumours made sense of how he had changed for a couple of months before ge died, but we had no idea and it came as a shock.
I cry everyday sometines several times, sometimes i cry so as my family dont see. I dont want them to be upset and worry, im angry, im lost, i miss his silly jokes, i miss his laughter. Our house and my parents home is so quiet without him, he was a loud funny man, a grandad and great grandad, very proud man. I cant see anything to be happy about at the moment, everyday tasks seems a struggle. I still picture him in his last week totally silent and still, not my dad at all. I was with him when he passed it was so peaceful but sureal at the same time. I miss him every single day. Everyone tells me different things, how i should feel, how time heals, im here if you need anything!! What that means i just dont get, mostly empty words, then that makes me angry. Is this all normal? It feels awful.
