This is my first post. My Mum died just over a week ago on the 11th September from pancreatic cancer. Mum had being well until three weeks to the day before she died when she became unwell and was taken to hospital. We were informed her kidneys were only functioning at 9per cent. She stablised and kidneys begun to improve however later that week she developed hospital pueumonia. Following scans and tests informed on 30th Aug that it was inoperable pc but prognosis 12 weeks. She was ok but restless on the morning that she died however deteriorated rapidly, the final few hours were very difficult she fought to live to the very end. My brother and I were with her at the end, our dad had passed away years ago. I am 31 and was very close to my Mum I am finding it very hard to believe that she is gone and I am stuck thinking about her last few hours and the final three weeks when she was unwell. I have a loving husband and amazing friends but feel very lonely and empty inside. She did not know her prognosis but knew she was very unwell, I did have an opportunity to tell her how she was my everything and an amazing mum and dad to us and how much I love her. I stayed with her the last three nights in the nursing home and she asked me to hold her hand and not leave her. I feel very grateful to have had this very precious time however I cannot process how life changed forever over 3 weeks.
