Hi there ...

So so sorry ... I can't imagine how heartbraking your feeling as your so young, and cancers so crule .. it has no compation ... all I can say is remember you are your mum... she made you .. and she'll stay wrapped up in your heart forever ... 

I feel my mum around me sometimes, like she's watching how I do ... and I've tried to live my life so she'd be proud of me .. and I bet she's looking down on you .. and proud of her baby ... the pain in that first year is like a raw pain that won't stop .. it's normal, we have to go through the grieving as it's part of loosing someone we were blessed to have had in our lives .. it shows how much you both meant to each other ..

It does get better .. but we never stop missing them ... so be kind to your heart .. and know there's lots of us on here, who have lost loved ones, and know the pain your feeling .. and your always welcome to put your thoughts on here .. there is a web site called RIP RAP ..I think , for young ones who have parents with cancer or loose some one .. hopefully @ ask the nurses will pick your thread up and confirm the site .. but reach out .. take any help you can get .. McMillan free phone could help with advice on councilling too .. when your ready .. sending you a big hug ... Chrissie