Hi there and welcome.  Sorry you have lost your mum.  Do tell us a bit more information about yourself and your family.  I hope your mum did not suffer too much.  Everyone has different ways of grieving; there are no set rules or time limits; we all have to do what feels best for ourselves.  It is now many years since I lost my mum to cancer and of course your loved ones are always in your heart and mind.  If you feel like talking aloud to your mum then do it; I used to do that not infrequently and still do sometimes but more often just hold a conversation in my mind.  Same with other loved ones I have lost.  If you read through this forum you will find others who are in your position and are wondering if they are ever going to get used to the situation so please do take a look through some of the posts.  I also hope that you have other family members who will understand how you are feeling.  Looking forward to hearing further from you.  Annie