I lost my mum to cancer 6 months ago

I lost my mum to cancer 6 months ago, and I don’t know what to do. I don’t know who to turn to or who to talk to, the longer it goes since she passed I feel like I don’t know who to talk to about it because life has carried on and in all honesty she would have been the one I would turn to. My mum died in February from stomach cancer, only a month and a half after being diagnosed. She fought and was told she had beat the disease the year before, yet it came back and now she’s gone. Im only 23 not married and don’t have kids and now I don’t know if I want anything of those things because I can’t imagine doing them without her. I’m moving away for work soon and I’m so worried about leaving my dad (I currently live at home, I moved back to look after my Mum), I do have siblings but I’m the only one at home. There’s no many emotions that go through my head on a daily basis but I just don’t feel like any of my close friends can relate to how I’m feeling, especially when some days I seem ok to the outside world but others I can’t hold it in anymore. I just don’t know where to turn so here I am. 

  • Hi there ...

    I was in my 30s when I lost mum and dad ... I was always with my mum, she looked after my boys and dotted on them .. I still miss her now 29 years later ... but you are in the family home, where she's everywhere ... you must feel like it's a bad dream and she'll still be there ... 

    There's no right or wrong way to grieve .. but your in the raw year .. it's like a wound that won't heal ... I remember walking down the town or going shopping and wanted to scream because everything looked "normal" and in my life, nothing would feel normal again ...

    But I'd picture what mum would say, and she was full of laughter and fun and loved to see us smile .. so I'd know she'd say ... come on, you can do this ... so I tried to live my life by what she taught me .. and I think she'd be happy with that ... your mum didn't leave you, she's there tucked up safely in your heart.  .. you take her with you on your journey through life ... just look in the mirror,  you are a part of her .. she made you ... 

    Be kind to your self and know this is the price we pay for being blessed to have had them in our lives .. you will go through so many feelings and emotions ... it can hit you out of the blue .. I found I go with feelings now .. but then get up the next day to do every day things ... take one day at a time ... and know many of us have been where you are now .. and many will follow ... 

    I've felt my mum so close since I've been on my cancer journey ... like she gives me the strength to see it through ... I'm sure they look over us ... and imagine your mum looking at you ... you know her, what would she tell you ... sending a big hug ... Chrissie

  • Hey I’m currently losing my Mum to cancer for these last few days, she has one to three days left. I’m fifteen and I have a brother who’s twenty and I know exactly how you feel .my life feels like it’s crumbling apart, I was so incredibly close to her and felt like she was the only person I could turn to I honestly can’t bear the thought of her not being with me to graduate school, move out and her not being there to do simple things together even,she is so weak right now I feel as though I’ve already lost her. You’re not alone and there are so many people you can turn to but no body will exactly understand what you’re going through but people will be there for you.

  • I lost my dad in December 1st last year. All I can is I am so sorry. I am struggling more and more, I come on here as it helps to know it is normal to feel like this. 

    Look after yourself xxxx

  • Hi Molly,

    i have just read your post and I can totally relate. I am 24 and it’s coming up to 6 months since I lost my mum to pancreatic cancer. I feel lost without her as like you she was the one I would turn to. Losing a parent at any age is tough but it’s a strange feeling losing your mum in your early 20s. We are not children so don’t have the support of having someone else take control for us but we still really need our mums at this age as we will face all those milestones without them kids, marriage it’s a horrible feeling. Sending you lots of love and best wishes xx