I don’t really know what else to do other than to try and reach out to people who understand what what I am going through. My Mum died a week ago today of cancer aged 44. I am only 26 and never in a million years did I think this would happen to our family. I was by her side every day for the weeks leading to her death and it was horrific.
The first few days I was numb but had to be practical as we needed to sort her funeral out. Since I have returned home (200 miles from where she lives) all I have done is cry and cry and cry. For days. I can’t sleep I can’t eat I don’t want to talk to anyone. I feel empty. My mum was my best friend, we had the most special connection. How do I go on like this? Is it normal to be this grief stricken a week later. If I get up out of bed or off the sofa I just cry and pace the house in silence.
My my heart has been ripped out and I don’t understand how I am meant to get through it. Her funeral is next week and I am completely terrified. I don’t really know what I’m looking for by writing this, I guess I just want reassurance that this is normal and it’ll get easier? :(