I’m so sorry for your loss. I don’t know how you go on and I’ve not been through it so I can’t imagine. Do you have someone to talk to? There may be counselling or peer meetings you can attend, people who know a little bit about what you are going through.

it sounds like your husband was a wonderful man and I’m sure he would want you to find some sort of happiness or peace. It’s only just been a year so go easy on yourself. Perhaps it’s even harder than usual this month? Xx