I'm new to this forum my husband Charles was diagnosed in December of 2017 and passed away July 7th of 2018 of stage 4 lung cancer it had metastasized to his brain is Skull lymph nodes and his bones the doctors gave him a year-and-a-half in May and he was gone in 2 months I am devastated my husband was 59 years old I'm 63 and I just don't know what to do I am literally sick on my stomach and I cry everyday I hope this forum helps and I'm glad I found somebody or some people  in the same position I am but is the hardest thing I've ever been through I lost my mother in April of 2017 I go to my first support group in 2 days but if anybody has any suggestions on how I can get through this it's just we've got to find a cure for this cancer and I would never ever love another man like I love my husband and he loved me so much at the end he was still worried about how I was cutting the grass and paying the mortgage and he was unable to do anything but lay he was so weak and he started having seizures and it was horrible