Welcome to the forum Jhh although I'm sorry to read of your mum's passing last year and would like to offer my condolences.

Many members here have found they have good and bad days when working through their grief so will understand what you're going through and how you're feeling right now and I'm sure some of them will post when they can to offer their support and advice.

Post as much as you need to Jhh as there will always be someone here to listen and let you know that you are not alone at this time.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator 

Hi jhh, I lost my mum on June 11th. After the initial trauma of watching her die, I thought I was coping well, now that the funeral has passed I feel terrible. 

I find myself jealous of others who talk about their mum, angry with my husband because he just doesn’t get it, he says he is sad because he lost a cousin who he saw 10 years ago! I know it’s irratiinal but it’s a huge loss. Everyone tells me that the feeling of loss doesn’t change but over time you learn to deal with it better. There are a lot of things people say about how I will feel but at the moment, just like you I feel sad and lost. It’s ok to feel that way because she was your mum, your everything. I have 3 kids and I am trying to think of my mum and think of the advice she would give me, it’s hard, I also would love to hear her voice tell her just how much she meant to me,m.

i hope you have a good day soon x

I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my mum in April after a very quick whirlwind of diagnosis to her passing away in 3 weeks. I’m struggling too. I have very very bad days and then somewhat ok days in that I can think about happy memories. My mum was my everything, I spent so much time with her...she was so young and had so much to live for I can’t help but feel bitter. I guess what I’m trying to say is you aren’t alone. You will think about her every day most likely, I know my mum is never far from my thoughts. I’d do anything to speak to her again...say the things I wish I’d said. It’s awful but I’ve learnt to just ride the rollercoaster. You can’t stop this emotional rollercoaster so just go with it...it takes too much energy to try and stop it and I believe it’s all part of a process we have to get through. I hope you’re ok x