In Feb this year my dad was diagnosed with a brain tumour (grade 4 glioblastoma multiform) it was in operable but they treated him with 3 weeks of radiotherapy. He deteriorated very quick and 5 weeks before he died I found out his partner was cheating on him. Me, my mum and her partner moved him into their house and we all took care of him until he passed away on 20th June (2 days before his scan results were to be given) it took 24 hrs of horrendous suffering for Dad, I thought he would go to sleep and slip into a coma but it didn’t happen, he was making an awful noise which sounded very distressing and that was for the whole 24hrs ! I held my dad and I heard his heart stop after I told him it was ok to go. I don’t think I will ever be the same again and I’m really struggling! I spoke to the hospital about his results and they said his scan showed there had been a slight improvement. If my dad made it to that he would have been so happy I am just so sad he didn’t get to hear the results.
I don’t know how I am going to move forward without my dad, I am devastated and don’t know what to do.
My kids can’t understand how things are so final and I don’t ekther so how am I suppose to explain it to them.
This is the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with.
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