My dad passed away 2017 but cant sleep ,all night thinking about dad.bcause i was not able to see him last time ,only talk with him on phone 2 days before he left me ,he got injection but there is infectuon and poison spread in his body i feel dad knows everything so dad discussed some important things to me before 2 days ..but i need to talk to him .i need my dady back or anyway he can talk to me 

Hello everyone. I'm the one who stated this post. I just wanted to say hello and that I'm sorry that we are all going through this. There isn't a day that goes by I don't think about my dad. Often on days I have to push him out of my mind otherwise the sadness will take over. I am not able to contemplate his death yet and actively avoid it. I have a lot of other very imminent problems that need sorting first. (Divorce!!!!) I doubt I will ever deal with it. Maybe one day if I get the chance to have a supportive partner I might not feel so alone. But I will say although I can't think of him without sadness I don't tend to go back the the vision of him in his bed. I have tried to picture him in happier times, although this does bring up sadness but not that horrific vision of his last few days!

Hello everyone. I'm the one who stated this post. I just wanted to say hello and that I'm sorry that we are all going through this. There isn't a day that goes by I don't think about my dad. Often on days I have to push him out of my mind otherwise the sadness will take over. I am not able to contemplate his death yet and actively avoid it. I have a lot of other very imminent problems that need sorting first. (Divorce!!!!) I doubt I will ever deal with it. Maybe one day if I get the chance to have a supportive partner I might not feel so alone. But I will say although I can't think of him without sadness I don't tend to go back the the vision of him in his bed. I have tried to picture him in happier times, although this does bring up sadness but not that horrific vision of his last few days!