My beautiful Mum passed away the other day, she was my best friend and the person I was the closest to. I'm 17 and lost my dad in 2013, struggling to get my head around things at the moment. Mum only got diagnosed with cancer in April this year so it has all been a whirlwind. I feel stupid because I hate showing my emotions and hate getting upset in front of my family. Also, its 4 am and these past months I just can't seem to sleep at all. I hate this :(