Hi Pink

My condolences to you for the loss of your Mum.

Grief is such a personal thing and many people deal with it in different ways.  The people around you don't realise how much you are struggling and probably think how well you are doing. The two things that can help you the most are time and support and perhaps you are not getting enough of the second.  I think you will have to confide in good friends or family how you actually feel.  The GP can help if certain things are becoming too much, depression for instance.

There is some help here which might be of use.http://www.cancerresearchuk.org/about-cancer/coping/dying-with-cancer/after-someone-dies/coping-with-grief?_ga=2.129889861.899944101.1527864946-90352285.1523023154

In any case come back here if you need to chat.

Kind regards

David