Hello everybody, it has been quite a while since I posted on here and in that time I have lost my grandad to this cruel cruel illness.
On the 28th of April he passed peacefully at home after being cared for by numerous nurses, carers and family. I was allowed to see him at home after he died and I held him so close and cried into his shoulder. I know it may seem rather odd that I was lying in bed, cuddling my grandad who had passed but it brought me so much comfort as reassurance that he was at past after such a cruel fight.
It was his funeral yesterday May 29th and I managed to fight back the tears and deliver a speech in his memory. It certainly was difficult but I was so proud after and I hope he was too.
It has got to this morning and I am a complete mess. I just don’t know what to do with myself. Everything I think about comes back to him and I am struggling so much to carry on today. I’m not sure whether I need to visit the doctor or call someone because this pain and sadness I am feeling is unbearable.
Does anyone who has experienced a loss have any advice on what I should do. I feel that the doctors may not be able to help and I don’t want to waste their time. I am just so lost and so sad and upset all the time and I am taking everything out on the people I care about around me.
Sorry for the very long post but I am so lost and could really do with some help
Emily