Hi there ... l lost my mum and dad in my 30s ... she was my best buddy, loved my boys with all her heart .. she lived for my oldest son with a love that was second to none .. but adored all her girls and their children ... she was with me most days, and on days l didn't see her she'd phone at odd times of the day and sing "I just called to say I love you" and put the phone down with a giggle ...she was such a big part of my day and life ...

My mum one Monday called me about coming up mine the next day ... she was just off to her O A P club ..  the last words she said was "see ya tomorrow love" at 5.20 she had a massive heart attack and there was no tomorrow .. l miss her as much today as the day l lost her ...

The one thing that made me cope was thinking how would she feel if she could see me everyday ... l know if she saw us all sad every day, and crying, it would brake her heart ... she loved it when we laughed.. she was full of life and laughter every day ... so I made my mind up then to do things in her memory. .. instead of grieving to gether .. we'd talk about her, about the loving things she did .. and those grandsons she adored, still put photos of her and them on face book and say wonderfull things about her and share memories with their friends on how amazing she was ... I'm sure that's because we'd all looked at it like "not crying because we lost her ... but feeling blessed we'd had her in our lives" 

She hasn't left you ... she's right there in your hearts , look in the mirror,  she's there....you are her ...she made you .... and your children ..  im on my cancer journey now, and have felt her with me... keeping me strong .. and if this cancer does take me, l want to see my kids carry on, smile and laugh, and I'll be happy ... but remember me, and tell my wonderfull grand kids how much I loved them .. and every smile they had would make me smile too ..  

There's no love like a mum for her children .. it holds like an invisible  web, and stays even when wer apart ...  so hold on and every time you have fun with your boys, you'll be building memories they will treasure of you, their mum ... Chrissie

Sending hugs to you. I'm sorry for your loss and your grief.

XXXX

Thanks Chrissie  for your lovely kind words..  Reading your post brought me too tears and you have made me realise that my mum wouldnt want me to be so upset all the time.. 

I do talk to my boys about my mum their nana. It saddens me that my mum never got to see my baby boy walk and he has my mum'  colour eyes

which she never got to see. My oldest boy had such a strong bond with my mum as he too misses her so much. 

Thank you for your lovely message xxx

I'm so sorry to hear you have just lost your mum.. Its so hard coping with grief as well as taking care of a newborn.. As I'm still struggling with seeing my baby take his first steps and my mum would be the first person I'd call to share and talk about his milestones.. 

I felt like last yr the first 6months just feels void.. I hope you have family to support you through ths difficult time.. 

Thank you for your lovely message.  Xx

Thank you for your lovely message xxx

Hi Poppy..

My situation is a little different and more recent but the pain is the same, everything is a blur right now for me.

My mum had kidney cancer which she recovered from after an operation to remove one of her kidneys, this was when I was 12 and at the time I thought nothing of it and was just told my mum was getting better which was very much true at the time.

Over the years her health worsened and multiple health issues compounded by diabetes and blood pressure problems led to her last functioning kidney failing, the result was her having to have dialysis for the last few years of her life, my wonderful father eventually became a full time carer for my mum with our own dialysis machine set up inside our house, they were together for 35 years.

A stroke in 2017 led to another scare..she lost her feeling in the right side of her body, it all went numb for her but she was still herself, she was still my mum and all her mental function was there, it was like a gift from god, saving my mothers life again.

The last 3 weeks of my mums life, she was the calmest most wonderful person ever, she would send me texts all the time telling me she loved me, she cooked me and my dad a dinner on the day of her death and I slept from 7 at night to 1am when I heard a knock on my bedroom door, my dad in tears, telling me sorry over and over, my mother passed away suddenly and we're still waiting on the cause.

My mum was my rock, my best friend and I only realized this on that night.when she passed away, I am crying as I type this but I needed to find somewhere..I would give anything to have my mum back.

I'll never forget my mums death, only a week after my 22nd birthday.. and you will never forget yours, I still don't know if time will heal me, but you have so much to live for and you sound like a wonderful person.

So many regrets but so many beautiful memories that I will hold to my heart forever and you should as well, let these memories strengthen you.

Much love and best wishes for your future,
Luke :)

Hi I reallyget this, I am an only child and my mum is dying with cancer. My dad who  died years ago was next to mum  my life,as an only child it is so different. My parents loved me uncondiontally. It is so hard to go on without them. They are always here for you. My mum will only live a few months probably, I am trying to sell” an exmatroinonial home after divorce but need to move on. 

She is so at peace now, as hard as it is for you, there is no more pain or suffering. It seems so so draining for the person who has cancer and so uncertain. In my opinion if you are like me you will always feel the pain of loosing her but you may feel her close to you. So try and let her go to the chosen place that she has determined. There is no pain or suffering where the soul goes. I hope this does help, I would not want to offend but having lost my dear father I believe this. X