Well i feel pretty broken right now, my dad was diagnosed with Melanoma 8 years ago, he bounced back pretty well after 5 sugeries but after the last 9 hour operation in August he hit the home run! The cancer spread quickly, immunatherapy was too late and gave him too many unbearable side effects, so he let the cancer take its course, we watched him suffer and deteriorate up until 2 weeks ago, i was with him as much as humanly possible as were my brother and sister, he had his dear friend with him too, we were all there when he took his last breath. What an experience, what a shock, what a load of strange and difficult images and menories, what a lot of questions, what a lot of pain! Im just swimming in it all, trying to be gentle and kind to myslef, eating clean wholefoods, almost ready to do yoga, and managed an uplifting cold shower today! Im trying to be in the ‘now’ present with being alive, so glad to be alive, now i know how utterly fragile and real that line is! Just here to share, listen, support and be supported xx
