Hi there ... so sorry to hear you lost your mum ...

A few years ago, someone close to me lost their loved one... and like you relived those last days over and over ... we found a book by Paul McKenna. . "How to mend a broken heart "... in it he tells you when this happens stop close your eyes and remember the funniest best memory you have of them, live it over, word for word.. picture their face .... remember everything said, word for word ... how it made you feel.. slowly, over and over until it replaces those sad memories with a smile ..

I adored my mum ... she was best friends to my two sons .. but l knew it would brake her heart to see us crying all the time, and it would brake her heart .. so l lived my life to make her proud ... she loved and helped everyone... so l tried like her, to do things in her name ...

We always talk about her , 29 years down the line, we still talk about her and bring her along with us .. my son's still put her photos on face book and say about their amazing nan ... yet we still miss her... that never goes. . Please be kind to your heart and say it's o.k to feel like you do .. it's o.k to cry, yell at the world about it being unfare ... but then say o.k, what would she say to me now ... l know my mum would av said ... come on lass ... in not gone, I'm right here in your heart ...and I bet your mum would say something like that too ... you were lucky to be blessed to have had such a wonderfull mum .. but if you look in the mirror,  she's there, in you ... she made you ... she's right there ...

So take care ... sending you a big hug ...  Chrissie