My mum died just over 2 years ago, when I was 14, I am now 16 and nothing has seemed to get better. Before mum died, she was my preferred parent as bad as it sounds I would spend all my time with her, she was my everything, even sleeping with her until the day she died. She was battling cancer for over a year, having 2 types during the time and later suffering with phenmonia to then being given 2 weeks to live.
I’m still so broken, nothing seems good anymore, I’ve been through so many councilours and therapists but nothing has helped me. Through all the mothers days; thinking my children won’t have a grandmother or she won’t be at my wedding. Especially prom comming up, I’ve chosen my dress but thinking I won’t have her input upsets me so much. Seems to me that everyone avoids the subject of mum now, people irritate me more and I just feel like I’m on my own and no one knows how I feel. Life is just so rubbish, nothing seems to get better.
If I was able to see her again, I would give up everything as she was my everything and it seemed to be taken so quickly. Ofcourse she was such a caring person, positively impacting the world, helping people through her job, so loving and caring but now it’s been taken from the world for no good reason. All just hard to cope with and I get so low
