My fiancé of nearly 3 years died the end of January after fighting cancer for a year, im really struggling to cope with his death, I’m only 24. People ask me how I am I fake a smile and say yeah I’m not too bad, but when really I’m not, some days I’m okay and I can deal with it but other days like today I want to give up, I miss him so much sometimes I feel like I don’t want to exist no more and I don’t want to have those thoughts, I hate telling people I’m not okay because I don’t want them to see that I’m weak, I have no body to talk to no one knows what I’m going through I’ve fallen out with his side of them family so I can’t even talk to them, I need help