Hi Smellbag,

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your close family friend to cancer and offer my sincere sympathy. I have lost both parents, several family members and close friends to cancer and am currently awaiting another batch of tests for a third cancer myself. It really is a devastating disease.

We all grieve in different ways and take different amounts of time to come to terms with the loss of a loved one. Two months is not really long enough. You will gradually notice that you don't cry as much and you can start to look back on happier times rather than how it was at the end.

I don't know whether or not this might help you, but I keep a photo of my mum in my living room near the door and I often find myself talking to her as I pass by. Since she died, I have striven to live my life as she would have wanted me to do and, I am proud that, on the whole, I have managed to achieve this.

Would you consider talking to a counsellor? this isn't for everyone, but many people find this a great help. Don't worry about crying a lot. This is a great srtess reliever and your tears will gradually lessen as time goes by.

We are always here for you whenever you want to talk.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx