I don’t really know where to begin,I lost my amazing,wonderful dad in January just past after a 5 year battle with prostate cancer. I know it’s not even been 3 months yet but I miss him so much it physically hurts. I don’t know if it’s still the grief or not but every now and again, I dream about him. In my dreams he is as well as ever and just doing normal things like sitting in his chair like he used to do. He isn’t suffering at all and he is happy. I like to think this is him coming through to me and letting me know he is ok wherever he is. Some days are manageable and other days I just want to hide from the world and cry. It’s bittersweet as we are doing all the “firsts” without him and it’s so hard. I’m getting married later this year and I know it’s going to be so difficult without him.

i feel like I can’t  talk about him as I get so upset but I don’t want to forget about him if I don’t talk about him I just feel so lost sometimes