Hello Suu and welcome.  Sorry that you are suffering from the loss of your dad.  His death is very recent so don't expect to have your emotions under control yet.  Grief is a very individual thing and there is no right or wrong way to handle it or any set timescales for it.  It suited me to go back to work quickly after my dad died but it wasn't easy - it was just my way of dealing with things.  Other members of my team needed a lot longer after losing a parent and that was okay too.  Sometimes you can think you are starting to feel better then grief can suddenly come back and bite you on the behind.  It is not something that you can control.  Are you able - and would it help you - to work part-time for a few weeks thus easing yourself back into your work?  The new normal will never be quite the same as the old normal but you will - in your own time - manage to cope with this.  It might help you to chat with the nurses here (Freefone 0808 808 4040) or perhaps ring Cruse Bereavement Care (Freefone 0808 808 1677) who have a good understanding of the ways in which grief can affect you.  And I hope you will keep posting here if this helps relieve your feelings.  Annie