Two weeks ago my fiancé passed away after battling cancer for under a year, we got told lots of different things but it was never good news it was just one thing after another, on the 5th jan we got told it had spread to his brain and there was nothing else they could do they offered him radio therapy to reduce the swelling but not the tumour, my life was ripped away from me, then 2 weeks later he got took I to hospital because he was very weak he wouldn’t get out of bed and he couldn’t keep nothing down he was constantly throwing up turns out he had sepsis from an infection we was unaware of and they’re was nothing they could do, we was told it was a matter of days till his body shut down but it wasn’t even that it was hours, I sat with him when he took his final breath and I knew my life would never be the same, his battle is over and he is at peace but mine is just beginning he was only 24 no age at all, I never got to do all the things we wanted to do we never said I do or even start the family we dreamed of and now all of that has been taken away from me!
His funeral isn’t for another three weeks so I haven’t been able to say goodbye properly yet he’s also being cremated so I feel like there’s no where I can go and sit with him I just feel so lost
