On the 4th October my Dad was diagnosed with lymphoma in his neck. He was admitted that day to hospital as although he had a lump for 2yrs undiagnosed, it had started to become very painful & enlarged. He felt like his chest was rattling & swallowing & breathing weren't easy.

He had a CT scan, blood tests, x-ray, heart echo & after saying it was isolated to his neck& confirming with a specialist that his heart was strong enough for Chemo they started treatment.

He was 70yrs old & had a torn aorta.

A week later he was sent home despite my concerns he was confused & acting out of character. 

6 days later I broke into his house & found him dead on his bedroom floor.

I'm finding it so hard to come to terms with. I feel like I was robbed of my Dad. Nobody at the hospital or social services would listen to my concerns that he was acting confused & I said he shouldn't go home on his own.

The coroner said that the cancer HAD spread to his heart.

I believe he fell & Then his heart stopped working.

I keep replaying his room & where he was lying in my my mind like a crime scene.

I miss him so much. I know that no one will ever love me like he did. =(

The world isn't the same without him.