Hi there ... it's a really hard time of year ... Christmas starts happening,  memories creep in about Christmas's past ... all we want for Xmas is our mums back ... you never stop missing them and it doesn't get easier , you just learn to accept those feelings ... 

What helped me was , l imagined my mum standing with me and what she would say ... it would have broken her heart to see me so sad ... she loved life and was always happy and made us laugh .. so then I realised that I would make her proud by living and making sure I would carry on her roll of making my kids smile ... and she helped everyone , so I've tried to do the same for her ...

I'm sure your mum would be very proud of her brave girl ... and bet she wouldn't want to see you so sad too ... those feelings that you feel are felt by us all on loosing someone dear to us ... but we were so blessed to have had such wonderful mums ... every time it starts to overwhelm you , think of a funny / loving memorie ... picture everything she said or did that made a special moment .. keep thinking it until you feel a smile ... it will help you through ... although a few tears are needed to ... 

Thinking of you ... we're always here if you want a chat ... big hug chrisie xx