My dad died on 4th October. He had a cancer called multiple myeloma but someone messed up and he went without his chemo for 3 weeks (myeloma is a cancer that relapses so you can be stable but when it comes back you need to go back in chemo). He didn’t ed in distress and on his own. We had gone home to get my 2 daughters dinner, the docs had said his observations were stable and they were still actively treating him, so we thought we’d be ok to leave for a bit. Then when we got back to the hospital he had died. I feel like I should be getting over it by now but I still feel like absolute crap, I don’t know what to do start getting back to normal