Hi there ... so sad when we loose our mums... especially when they were a big part of our life's and the children loose a nanny too ... I felt desolate for quite a while, till I wondered what my mum would say if she could see me , and I knew it would break her hard to see me so upset ... I think she would say to me.. come on , no more tears and start living again and give those kids a happy home ... you know your mum , what would she say to you ... I'm on my cancer journey and I've told those I love , if I loose this journey I'm on , they can have a few tears but I'll be watching to make sure that don't spend time being sad .. 

I can only say what helped me, and although it's 28 years ago on the 13th Nov I still miss her every day but try to carry on and make her proud ... I'm sure she feels proud of you too ... and be happy that we were blessed with an amazing mum ... some will never know what that's like ... sending you a big hug ... chrisie  xx