I’m 27 and have a 10months old daughter I lost my dad around 16months ago to lung cancer we were extremely close and I lost my brother 3 years ago to bowel cancer he was only 30. They both died less than 6 months after diagnosis as was both undetected untill stage 4. I’m a first time mum and after loosing them I have been suffering really bad with anxiety and paranoia some days I can’t even leave the house or drive my car. I watch things like STUTC and I’m paranoid cancers going to affect my family again. And I just feel like I’m going insane I’m not the same person I was before all this loss I have spent the last few days convinced I have cancer myself because I’m unwell I think I have the flu but I can’t help but add 2 and 2 together and get 200! I have a small lump behind my ear I have just found and I suffer with back ache and (if there are any men around this might be tmi) but since having a coil fitted I have two extremely heavy periods a month now and I’m just so worried for my health now. My husband and his family believe I’m irrational (his way of trying to calm me down I think) and I know in my head I probably am iv had swabs done at the Drs I have to go back for results next week. But I guess what I’m trying to get too is how am I supposed to carry on? I know how precious life is but any little illness myself or my daughter or family get I’m always immediately jumping to the worst possible conclusion and I don’t know how to get around this. I just feel like I’m loosing my mind! Anyone feel this way too?