It’s so hard to express how I’m feeling right now I lost my Dad to cancer and other illnesses last November(1st) I love my Dad so much we never said that each other we just knew he’s was my best friend it like losing 2 people if that makes any sense 

We would do everything together then from last November it ended 

He became ill at the start of 2017 in and out of hospital which was a nightmare he hates hospitals and doctors when he finally came home I was his primary care giver which was the hardest job I’ve ever done in my life just watching him getting worse and worse was heartbreaking 

It’s worse for my sisters(41 & 36) today the youngest one told me she can’t cope anymore she doesn’t know how to handle it 

I’m 40 and I haven’t got a clue what I’m saying or doing today I know my a Dad would want me to carry on with my life and never give up 

Its just very very hard