Hi there ... I’m so sorry that your dad lost his fight ... I missed my dad too, and when my mum had a heart attach some years before, me and my sister were put in a waiting room saying she was having x-ray ... only some half hour latter when I went to find her, I heard them saying, he’d have to inform the relatives ... she wasn’t in x-ray ..and she had passed away... we could have held her hand and said goodbye... it broke our hearts but looking back I know both my mum and dad would have said “it’s o.k “ 

although it’s so hard, and we can’t turn back time ... I think they still live in our hearts and no one can take that away ... though those feelings are so normal ... I bet everyone wishes there was something they would change ... you know your dad, what would he say if he could ... I’m sure he would ask you to forgive yourself ... and I bet he’s proud of how much you loved him ... you will be going through so much right now, you need to be kind to your heart ... sending you a big hug ️ Chrisie xx