Hi there Michele ... you must be in shock as it all happened so so quick ... please don’t feel guilty as you must have loved her very much ... and even if she could have stayed awhile longer, she would have been in so much pain... there’s always the thought of “what ifs” and all those feelings your going through is part of loosing someone you love very much ... I’m sure your mums looking down on you now, feeling no pain now and no more suffering.. I’m sure she’d be pritty proud of her loving daughter , and I bet it would break her heart to see you hurting so ... be kind to your heart, and know you did what you could in the sercomstance ... we could all wish we could go back in time and see if we could change things, but would you really want to have seen her hurting with pain longer ... if it were me, I would have wanted the pain to stop ... so forgive yourself ... we never stop missing our mums, but they live in your heart and no one can take that away hunny ... sending you a big hug ... Chrisie ️ Xx