Hi, this is all pretty new to me but feel I need to message/talk. Lost my dad 26 years ago to lung cancer, and my mum 13months ago to same. Although I have a big family, I feel lost being the eldest (46) and trying to cope with mums recent passing. Try to be strong for everyone but when on my own the grief swarms me. Husband works shifts so when he’s on nights I struggle. Sometimes feel I can’t talk to him as his own dad is battling prostate cancer. A person who I have known longer than my own dad & love dearly. It’s hard to be strong x