He fought a hard battle and became too weak to fight any longer the cancer went to his brain. It was heart breaking to see him struggle day to day this all has been a nightmare,heart breaking time for me he was my world and day to day struggles just becomes harder,harder as time goes by just being alone after 37 years together is unbearable at times the tears never stop I have a lot of friends but it's not the same it does not calm my pain and I distance my self at times because I am so sad ,depressed.this is the hardest thing I have ever been through.and trying to deal with and manage all the things my husband always took care of before he got sick is just overwhelming and I am lost at times not understanding how to take care of these things.so much to take care of financial issues are a night mare in it self.paying bills Social security is a night mare because I am 59 my husband was 72 so you know how that goes, and just found out two months ago my brother has stage two leukemia in the hospital not doing good needing me it's a lot to take on with all I am going through now.I don't know what to do or where to turn.my son is 35 we were very close but since his dad past our relationship has really took a dive to the point there is no contact I don't understand what's going on with him but I gave him his space he needs but what about my pain I feel all alone more than ever now.I would like to say to all who have lost a love one to Cancer I feel your pain and sorrow and my prayers are with you because I know what your going through.Thank you for excepting me in to talk about my husband Bill he was such a sweet,loving man and he gave  me  so many years of joy,happiness I will never ever find again in my life time so with that thank you again and I am looking to find so peace.

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