I'm so sorry to hear your partner passed away so suddenly and I just wanted to pass on my heartfelt condolences and let you know our thoughts are with you at this time.
As Susan has said, I can't begin to imagine how difficult this must be for you but I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. Many members on the forum have been where you are now so will know exactly what you're going through and I'm sure some of them will be along soon to offer their support and advice. I've included some information we have about coping with grief which I hope will be of some help and comfort to you at this time but if you feel like you need to talk to someone cruse bereavement are just a phone call away on 0808 800 1677.
We're here for you Loki and will do all we can to help you through this.
Wish I could say something to help ease your pain .... but probably words won’t help right now .. so sending you a big big hug .... wer all thinking of you ... Chrisie ️ Xx
Omg l don't know what to say that must have been awful l am so sorry. No words can help how you feel.. i lost my mum on 10th Aug 2017 with lung cancer and l feel like my worlds fell apart. I would hate to think if it happened to my husband. He is my life. He fell ill about 2 years ago with what seemed like a very bad flu. His temp went up ski high and he started being violently sick. I was told to take him to hospital. His mind went and he started getting very confused and thought he was being kept in a place that he was taken to get accessed for an alien invasion and then it was other random stuff. He thought they had shut off his phone signal so he had no contact with outside world. When l went to visit he was angry and never spoke much and said why had l not text or phone. I had text loads. The doctors were baffled there was something wrong with his brain. It was swollen and they were doing all sorts of tests. I was so worried. It was the 1st time he had ever spent anytime in hospital and we were always together. I cried so much as the house felt empty and whatever he had seemed bad....life threatning. I can only imagine it is a tiny bit like that but a million times worse as you know he is gone.. i could not cope with just that l missed him so much. The house felt empty l could not even go to our bed as it reminded me of him. He had a spinal tap and they found out he had a virus in his brain and it may cause permenant brain damage. I did not care as long as he lived. It caused him a few issues going on aa they treated him for the brain virus and when they did a ct scan when they were loooking for a cause they found a clot in one of the tubes running to his pancreaus and a small teare in it. It took him a few weeks to get better but it did leave some damage. He had trouble writing and had a few moments he said stuff that was strange. But l was so happy to get him home. I thought about the future and said l could not go on without him. I really could not live in the house we share. I can only imagine what your going through. It must be hell.. l am still grieving the loss of my mum and its so hard as l feel part of me is missing. She was the best mum ever. I don't know what age your husband was or how long you have been together but it must be the hardest thing to go through. I have been married 20 years and been with him a lot longer. I am 44. I could not inagine life without him. Ever since we met we have been together constantly. We are not ones for going out seperatly and we always stay together. I am unable to work now as l have really bad Ostioarthritis and most of my joints have been replaced. My husband has also given up work to be my carer. Its not what l imagined at 44 years old. Nor did l imagine how hard it would be without my mum. Its so huge l can't take it in. I am so devastated.
So l am so so sorry as whats happened to you is the worst thing l could ever imagine happening. No matter what l say it will make no diffrence. I can see how my dad is coping.........he is not! Without my mum who was his life partner for 60 years or more. He is lost but trying his best to get through each day.
