I haven't posted before but I just need to talk to others/vent my grief away from family and friends.

I just lost my best friend, my beautiful mum to cancer, 17 days after her diagnosis and it just doesn't seem real right now...

My mum was 66 years old but so young for her age and SO full of life!!

She had been ill for just a week before diagnosis. She was diagnosed with bowel cancer that had spread to her liver on the 18th August and she passed away on the 4th September (my daughters 1st birthday)

My mum was such an amazing woman and a friend to absolutely everyone she met.

My Dad (they had been together 46 years) is so lost without her. It breaks my heart to see him so broken.

I don't want to burden my family with my grief but I am struggling to cope right now. The pain is unreal. I am barely eating or sleeping. The only thing keeping me going is my baby girl.

That I will never see, hear, feel my mum again is unbearable.

I know other people have been through similar situations but I just need somewhere to talk where I am not bringing down my already heartbroken family.