hi all, em am not really sure what has made me come onto this but anyways am 16 and I lost my mum too brain tumour a month ago. Here's my story. She got diagnosed in America on a family holiday 6 years ago and she stayed there for over a month while we came home. I was too young to understand any of it but as I have got older I understand it more. I used to be okay with coping with it all but 3 years ago she went into a coma after she had a seizure and I saw it happen and since that day I never went to hospital to see her, I'd avoid talking about it too people I didn't tell any of my friend bar 2 and they aren't even my to best friends, I'd leave the house any chance I could so I could get away from it all. Anything to avoid seeing her so I'll or talking about it I did. Iknow saying this sounds awful but now I realise I should have changed. I tried not to think about the tumour killing my mum and that I'd have so many more years left with her I didn't think it take her so soon but it just kept progressing. since her passing I still have barely talked unless people force me. I get so angry when I get upset about it all I just don't know what to do cus I really hate talking to family and friends about it's cus it isn't going to change anything. I've been so lost since it happened and barely been sleeping or soializing with anyone cus am just always in a bad mood. I still can't believe how soon it's happened and how's she's gone am so lost without her Andy there's nothing More now that I regret than not changing how I coped and spending time with her I wish I cud change that so much it keeps getting to me that I just avoided thinking it go away and Mowbray it has I feel awful
