In June this year my mum passed away, 10 months after her diagnosis. We were extremely close, I lived with them until last year, we went on holidays all the time, we were best friends, I told her everything and she was my rock. It has now been 2-3 months and I can't face my grief. I feel pain and I think about her all day every day. When I think about it I feel like I'm suffocating and in the run up to her passing I was having panic attacks. Now I can't seem to cry? And I don't understand why? When I do feel everything it feels horrific. I just cannot understand it as she was the nicest sweetest person in the world and did so much for everyone. I am only 30 years old and she was only 59 and I feel that we, and more importantly she, has been completely robbed. I can't get over it but I also can't cry and want to know how others felt after the death of someone they loved with all their heart? How do you cope with the suffering? Both what you feel now and how you saw them at the end? She was my favourite person in the world.
