My mum always said if she got cancer she would not seek treatment for it ! In April 2015 after blood noticed in her urine she got the news.
I begged her to have a hysterectomy as my mum was a healthy 8o yr old lady , I now feel guilty as she had this op then (I believe she opted out of chemo) to have radiotherapy. By November I could see she was sick and she knew too. It was a dark time , from then on ( I discovered after her death) she didn't take any of the Meds to stop clotting. She was too sick to start chemo. I believed she suffered intensely!
I miss her !even though I did wish death would release her and then it did .
What can I do about the grief and her precious memory?
