So sorry for your loss, it is a very difficult time.
I lost my dad in June and still feeling quite numb, I have come to realise that there is no time limit on anything I should be feeling right now. Some days I feel like it is just not real and others I just about manage to function.
I have found this page a big comfort, even if you just come to rant, talk, whatever it does help to know others feel your pain.
