Thank you. I have a great support network, other family and friends and two young boys to focus on. I hate how it feels like he was never here... that this is the new normal now. The fried is unbearable... and what's worse is knowing how I'll have to live with it for the rest of my life. 

I'm sorry to hear you are going through this: cancer is just horrific and destroys everyone around it. Nothing I say  will make a difference when the time comes - it's is terrible. But even though being there was traumatic at the end I'm so glad that I put myself through it to be with me dad when he took his last breathes. The overwhelming grief has eased a little but I'm constantly terrified of being caught off guard. I've seeing my dads car on the drive or coming across a photo of him on my phone. The funeral is on Thursday - dreading it xx

How are you doing? The pain has eased a little... but still getting caught out be old memories, seeing my dads things etc... I hate how it feels like he never existed now x

Hiya. Yes feel exactly the same. I feel guilty when I have ok moments and can't picture dads face. We have the funeral on Friday which I'm dreading. I think the mornings are the worst. It's so nice knowing we feel the same 

mary xx

I hope all goes well on Thursday my dads funeral on Friday feel sick just thinking about it. I know what you mean about being off guard when that feeling comes over you at just the mention of his name or having to tell someone what has happened. Felt good k today but feel bad again this evening 

mary xxx

Hiya. Good luck tomorrow I feel sick thinking about Friday just want it over with. Have bad days and good days. How you doing. Just want dad back keep going over his last day and find it hard to remember it all. 

Mary x

Thanks for remembering. Dreading it. I've been okay the last few days... just keeping busy... but know tomorrow will reopen it all again. How're you doing? X

Same as you really ok some days and others not so great. Feel a bit stronger at the moment although Friday I know will be unbeatable. I hope all goes well today will be thinking of you. God bless xx

Hi,

I just want to say that I am thinking of you and your family at your Dad's funeral tomorrow. Try to think of the funeral as a celebration of his life rather than  something that you have to get through.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hiya. Thank you so much. I really don't know if I can bear it feeling so anxious and frightened. Will try so hard to be strong if not for me but for my kids don't want them to see me breakdown 

xx