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Lost my dad

BethR1
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Hi all

I lost my dad yesterday after a short battle with aml, he was diagnosed after being rushed to hospital on the 1st of March this year.  He then spent the next 3 months in hospital having 2 rounds of intensive chemo and fighting infection after infection.  He was moved to the hospice Tuesday this week and passed yesterday with my mum, myself and my sister by his side.

I feel so lost.... I know he is better off now as he was in a sorry state towards the end, but I just wasn't ready for him to go.  I am glad I was there with him and he knew how loved he was, but I also am struggling with seeing my dad die.  I spent every single day by his side whilst he was away from and woke up this morning feeling like I had no purpose in life.  I would have done the hospital run every day for eternity if it meant I got to keep him.

I miss him so much

Beth

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    Hi Beth,

     

    I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I lost my dad 5 years ago this year and it still feels like yesterday. I don't know where the time has gone. It gets easier and now I remember him so fondly. I miss him every day and still get upset but that expected. Allow yourself time to grieve and show your emotions. Use all your support networks. Big hugs. xx

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    Hi ktlylee

    Thank you for your message, it is appreciated.

    It will be 4 weeks for dad tomorrow and I still feel like it is not real.  I just can't bring myself to accept I won't see him again, I suppose I'm just not ready yet, I don't know.

    I did actually have a good cry with my partner today, so I suppose things are starting to sink in, I just don't know

    Xxx

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    Hi ktlylee

    Thank you for your message, it is appreciated.

    It will be 4 weeks for dad tomorrow and I still feel like it is not real.  I just can't bring myself to accept I won't see him again, I suppose I'm just not ready yet, I don't know.

    I did actually have a good cry with my partner today, so I suppose things are starting to sink in, I just don't know

    Xxx

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