In October I found out I was pregnant I was over the moon as was my best friend of 10 years, on the 22nd of December she died from ovarian cancer. I miss her terribly and feel I have no one to talk to, she was going to be my birthing partner with my husband, I'm 3 weeks away from my due date and find myself crying every single day knowing she won't be there. I know it's not good for me or the baby but I just can't stop myself.