My mum was diagnosed with cancer in October and she passed away on the 8th of Feb and I'm really struggling I cry myself to sleep I cry wen I wake up I cry in work I didn't know you could feel pain like this my hart is broken I just want her back I feel like I'm loosing grip of everything I don't care about anything any more  except my 2 kids and 2 grankids if it wasn't for them I don't think I would be hear I live in England and my mum was in Scotland the day we got the news I went to Scotland and stayed there till the end I was horrible she basically starved to death and I had to watch the most important person in my life wast away to a skeleton I didn't have help from anyone except the district nurse who came in to change her driver and I can't get the images of her out my head I'm really struggling to cope and don't know what to do