Hi ,thanks for your kind reply,it must be so hard for you, sorry for the loss of your lovely

 partner,you must be in bits.

My dad tried everything not one thing worked,but you always have hope things might change dont you?

I think when they go.. they take a piece of you away,its like a wave of loneliness sweeping over you,my

father died at home also, where he wanted to be and I was there holding his hand.. so its just running

 around one minute looking after them,, to nothing,,, I am struggling with but am sure things will improve

for you and for me its just picking up the pieces again, God Bless you take care of yourself. Linzi