Dear Deemissesmyhollie I am so sorry to read that you have lost your granddaughter it is such a devastating thing to have to experience. My son died on the 19th Jan 2017 nine months after being diagnosed with bowel cancer and secondary liver metastes. That time was very strange all our energies went into making him and his new wife lives the best they could be. The day after he died I woke up and thought I have nothing to for him now, I don't have to worry how he is. Then that dreadful realisation that I shall never see him again, it gets worse each day. I have two lovely daughters, a loving husband, a gorgeous grandson and a loving daughter in law, we I don't know if we will get there but we talk about him all the time, cry about him, laugh at what he got up to and are broken for his future that will never be. I really cannot offer anything that will ease the pain, heal the heartache, I wish you and your family the best that can be on this new life you have to lead.xxleslie