My mum passed away on Boxing Day 2016 after a long battle with secondary cancer to the bones. 

I am glad she is no longer suffering but I miss her dearly.. I thought I was coping well, having good days and bad days but recently it feels as though it's getting harder and harder as time goes on. I don't feel like socialising anymore and I find myself shutting people out. I see my dad every weekend to make sure he's okay and keep myself busy doing chores for him but once I'm done for the day I go back home and I'm just lost.. 

It's almost like I don't want it to get easier, I just want my mum back. I sit reading old messages between me and my mum and I've even sent her a birthday message recently. How the hell do I go on?? My heart is absolutely broken.