Hello Lorraine, I noticed you'd not had a reply to your post yet and just wanted to stop by to welcome you to Cancer Chat. I'm glad you found us and hope you'll find chatting with other members helpful. 

As many of our members here say, there is no time limit on grief. It sounds like you've been very busy and it's only now that you have been able to pause and recognise these feelings. I do hope someone will be along soon to share their experiences. In the meantime, I'm including the link to Cruse Bereavement Care, who offer counselling. Our team of cancer nurses are also available to chat, if you'd like to: 0808 800 4040.

I hope you're able to get the support you need - let us know how you get on,

Helen

Cancer Chat Moderator