i'm coming up to the first without my mum too :(

what type of cancer did she die off? X

secondary bone cancer which was in all of her bones x

Hi poppy 

So sorry about your mum.. She was so young. My mum passed away in July 2016 and this first mothers day without her which I'm. Dreading seeing mothers day cards is horrible. She was 69 and had neck cancer caused by skin cancer in her ear which spread. She went. Lot quicker than we all got told and watched her literally die over 4 Days at hospital we were at her side day and night we slept beside her, held her hand. Like you can't get the image out my head of her dying it's there 24/7 on my head. First 5 months or so iv been on auto pilot and tried to cope but feel. I'm falling apart now and feel. Horrible first thing when I wake up remembering still she s not here. I can't even put her photo up yet too painful to see her even though she s my mum. I have an appointment on Tuesday at crus bereavement so I'm hoping they can help. Please feel free to message me know how your feeling x

I am doing a berevament walk with st peter and st james which should be good getting to meet more people in our situation I wake up and I'm lost I use to wake up and go straight to mum and look after her all day and night I also watched mum slowly slip away for 6 days she wouldn't let go we knew there was one last thing she needed we tried got the man from the church he came and said a blessing we had lots of pictures of all 6 kids her sister grandchildren she help on to see her nephew who came from London and died hours later when he had gone holding onto her teddy I brought she never let it go the whole time she was there x

The Mother's Day hurdle... everywhere I look are banners, posters and of course, Mother's Day cards, First time in over 40 years I won't be buying one. Often wonder why shops don't stock bereaved Mother's Day cards to place on a graveside, know they can be bought on line but its nice to see a stack of cards, touch them and read the verses to see which one says it all. I will do something though just that as a mother myself, difficult to smile when the kids give me their cards whilst silently weeping for my mum. First hurdle before Mother's Day though is what would have been mum's 84th birthday on Sunday 5th March. Sometimes just want to sleep for a year and bypass the pain. xx